Game over. Uterus - 1, Jacky - 0
Well, that's all folks. Sorry to anyone who actually still reads this for the delay in updates. I'm sure you were on pins and needles but it's all over now. The doctor has officially cut me loose. There's nothing more she can do for me. Since she's a doctor that specializes in tough cases, I've got no choice but believe and accept that.
I'm not even going to begin to try to explain how it feels other than it feels bad, man. And it probably will for a long time.
So, what's next?
If you've followed this blog you know that we were never in the position for my girlfriend to try instead. Her job before simply didn't allow it. But fortunately now she has a new, much better job and we are thinking that we might be able to turn the tables now. We are meeting with the doctor next week to talk about that.
It will be strange to be on the other side of the stirrups...
Anyway, this blog was about my journey and now that is over. I considered archiving it, but I think I'm going to leave it for now. Someone may come across it in a Google search about fertility and might read about my experiences. Or maybe there is some doctor that is Googling tough fertility issues and wants to study me. Whatever. But I don't know if I'll be updating anymore. My girlfriend doesn't enjoy writing like I do so I don't think blogging would be her thing. We'll just have to wait and see.
So, thanks for reading for all these past months and allowing me to share my thoughts and feelings. To anyone reading this and going through the same thing, I wish you nothing but good luck. And to everyone else, see you around the Internet!
- They say 30's are the new 20's. My wife and I have been together for over a decade now. We both work in the fast paced world of academia. Our state (and recently all others across the country) have finally allowed all marriage so we made that happen October 2014.
I'm a pretty big nerd, I'll be the first to admit. I love video games (yes, as a girl and yes, at my age). I have lots of other nerd hobbies and since I was unceremoniously banned from RuneScape, I've been playing Civilization and Skyrim. My real first nerd love is Magic the Gathering. 10,000 cards and growing, but that's an expensive hobby when you have two babies.
I have other grown-up interests too, especially reading. I like reading so much I have 3 Kindles and I also used to be a martial artist (one belt away from black belt. I'll finish someday.)
But now I've got twins and I have a feeling a lot of those hobbies are going to change.